I don’t like giving them, but I rarely have a choice. Usually, I can get through them scratch-free and maintain composure. This time, however I seemed to fall apart.
I was way more prepared than my delivery showed. I knew exactly what I was going to say. It didn’t have to memorized, but I felt fairly comfortable going to sleep last night. I had my intro down and everything. (I used the Albino Skunk post.)
I thought I was ready and got in front of the class and felt sooo uncomfortable. It may have been the subject. Me. I’m fine with sharing my findings of a particular issue, but when I have to “introduce” myself, I get apprehensive. You want me to think aloud? In a public forum? About myself? I was completely removed from my element and didn’t realize it until I opened my mouth to speak. Throughout the entire speech I was shifty-eyed and awkward. I fumbled over words and made public speaking mistakes I knew I was making as I made them. It was terrible.
Ask me to deliver a speech on a someone else, a research topic, or maybe even something I’m passionate about, but please don’t make me share what I’m thinking. That’s what this is for.